i never thought that i would come to this point...
it makes me smile to think of the things that i said to those who goes to me and asked for my opinion of going somewhere else instead of staying and not enjoying the amount of glitters and golds we're getting. back then, i can say a million words to make them realize that to live in this world do not depend on just cash and that theres more else to enjoy. i even mention myself as one of the reason for them to stay...its funny that...those millions of words does not affect me as much as it affected them.
i cant convince myself anymore to stay with you any longer. ive suffered enough, ive enjoyed enough, theres nothing more that i can think of that we can do being together but to repeat the things that we usually do over and over and over again...its starting to make me sick, it makes me vomit to see you, hear you, feel you or hear you. i never wanted to do it again. i dont want to go back to what ive been doing with you because ive learned what i needed to know from it. i dont feel like like arguing about this. please dont throw me millions of your reasonings, i dont want to say yes anymore, can i just say no once and thats it? if we cant be apart here then ill be somewhere else instead...maybe not yet...not now...maybe soon...because im still collecting myself...preparing myself for a new world....for a new beginning...ill leave you when im ready... and when that time comes...you wont be able to stop me.
i never wanted this...i never liked you...i dont believe in you...i didnt had the choice...i was never given a choice...i was pushed to be with you...please bear with me...because ive been under contruction from day one of being here.
